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April 18, 2008

¿Dónde está el autor?

Según Barthes, el autor está muerte. But according to me, I'm alive and well and in Guatemala.

So what's up? Well, my job with that NGO in Costa Rica ended at the beginning of this month, I'm taking the opportunity to travel. I've already finished two weeks in Nicaragua and am now in Antigua, about to hike up an active volcano in two hours.

Nicaragua was interesting because it felt more like the Philippines than Costa Rica. It was definitely just as hot, I saw grass burned yellow by the sun. It was also poorer than Costa Rica, I saw trash on the side of the highway, and until that point I hadn't realized that Costa Rica's roads were missing that particular detail. Nicaragua also apparently receives more international development assistance, since I saw lots of signs about stuff being donated by Japan or Germany or some other country.

Anyway, I can't seem to put myself into the right mindset for anthropological thinking, so I'll just leave you all with this update on my whereabouts and bid you adieu for now.

October 20, 2007

Costa Rica: Some initial impressions

Okay, this was written a little while ago but I'm only now putting it up.  Enjoy:

Well, I've been in Costa Rica for a week, so I wanted to share my initial impressions.

First, it's quite wet here. It's the rainy season, which pretty much means that it will rain everyday until November or early December. But just because it rains everyday doesn't mean it rains all day, and it's gotten sunny quite a few times since I've been here. The first couple of days, it was so humid that I felt sticky all the time, but either I've gotten used to it or the wetness has eased off. Number 2 is less likely because one of the wettest days in the last month (or so I'm told) happened a couple of days ago, the tv news had lots of stories about floods and crap out in the countryside. In fact, there's apparently now a state of national emergency.

By the way, the wettest day of the month also coincided with my second day of work. My boss picked me up on my first day on Monday, but I had to make my own way on the bus system the next day. I got off at the wrong stop in an entirely different neighbourhood then took the taxi to the landmark nearest to the office. See, addresses work differently here, houses and buildings don't have numbers. When giving directions, people say, "Go 100 metres north from the park and 200 metres west, it's the yellow house on the corner." One block is taken to equal 100 metres, no one really cares if it actually is 100 000 centimetres. So they actually mean go 1 block north and 2 blocks west. It's overcast a lot now so you end up having to keep asking which way is north.

That's the surface stuff, but on to the serious bits.  On the topic of gender, it's interesting to note that two of the guidebooks I'd read warned that travellers would be shocked at how much skin Costa Rican women showed.  All I can say is that the writers must have been Amish because I haven't seen anything outrageous at all in terms of clothing.  None of the girls here in San Jose would look out of place in Los  Angeles.  The biggest difference I've noted between here and North America is that hiphop fashion is hardly present here for both girls and guys.

Anyway, I went wandering off the tourist path once and saw an amazingly scuzzy-looking woman, she had a beer belly, armpit hair, and a miniskirt and bare midriff.  Sure, it's freaky, but I'm thinking back to some other scuzzy-looking women I've seen in Sudbury and I can't say she looks that different.

Oh yes, prostitution is also legal here.  The prostitutes don't have pimps because they don't need them when they're legal.  Apparently the tourist hooker industry is contained almost entirely in the Hotel Del Rey, which also has a casino inside.  I went inside to use the ATM once and saw lots of fat white guys and amazing looking women.  But apparently the locals have their own brothels they go to where the women aren't as pricy.

Second, on the topic of race, I've noticed that most of the working class folk have darker skin while the richer set are very white.  You can't assume that just because someone is blonde that they're foreign because they could very well be a native Costa Rican (an upper-class one, to be specific).  It was really quite obvious when I went to the Canadian embassy (it was closed, apparently they punch out at 1 PM on Fridays, the jerks), which is located in Sabana Sur, one of the swankier districts here.  I wandered around and saw some big houses with SUVs in the driveway.  I also had some chocolate croissants at this one convenience store and watched some kids from something called the American High School hanging out in the parking lot.  A couple of them were blond as can be, though none were that Scandinavian blond that burns really easily in the sun.

Continuing in that vein, and to segue to the topic of language, I must confess that I find it easier to talk to upper-class Costa Ricans.  It's just that I can understand their accents better because they're more like the standard Spanish I studied.  It was only after having had trouble speaking with different clerks and taxi drivers did I realize that some of them must have been Nicaraguans who'd come over to do the 3D jobs (dirty, dangerous, and difficult) that are the lot of many immigrants the world over.  Anyway, they do stuff like omit the "s" at the end of words ("tremille"? Oh, "tres mille", 3000).  Costa Rica is mostly inhabited by mestizos and criollos (i.e., they look mostly Spanish), but quite a few Nicaraguans are actually descended from the local Indians.   Which means that Nicaraguans tend to be darker-skinned than many Costa Ricans.

Also, today (note: on Oct. 8) there is a referendum on whether Costa Rica should sign on for the Central American Free Trade Agreement (CAFTA).  Anyway, the Si people seem to be mostly composed of the richer set, while the No people are more working class, with a couple of richer liberals here and there (I saw a guy in an SUV with a No sign in his windshield).  There have been convoys of Si vehicles tricked out in flags and Signs going up and down San Jose beeping their horns and drawing attention to themselves.  I did see a newspaper vendor shouting "vampiros" at them while they passed, though.

The building across from my hostel has one of the counting stations, there's an armoured vehicle and tons of cops on the street.  Supposedly Costa Rica has no army, but I can't really see the difference between these police officers and army pukes, they've even got army-looking uniforms and swagger around like soldiers.

Anyway, that's what I've been up to in Costa Rica so far.

September 16, 2007

Once more, with feeling (i.e., to Costa Rica via Montreal and Toronto)

It seems rather like the only times I post are when I feel the need to assert that I'm still around.  Yes, I still have this blog and yes, I haven't keeled over as of yet.

Besides this important announcement, let it also be known that I have been hired as a "website specialist" for Defensas de Niñas y Niños - Internacional (Children's Rights International) in Costa Rica.  It's a human rights NGO based in Guadalupe, which I think is a suburb of the capital, San Jose.  Yes, you people in the know, this is the result of me applying for an international development position in Southeast Asia, preferably the Philippines.  What can I say, this was what I got after mentioning to the coordinating agency Human Rights Internet that I had intermediate level fluency in Spanish.  At least I'll finally become fluent in Spanish.   I could feel myself on the cusp of it after only 5 weeks in Peru, so the 6 MONTHS I'll be in Costa Rica should finally and permanently stick castellano into my head.  It's from October to March and for the journey back I'm actually considering taking the bus from Costa Rica to Los Angeles to see my relatives there, then flying from LA back to Canada.  The whole thing will probably take a month or so.  Anyone out there done anything similar?  Is the infrastructure there or will it be harder than I think?  I've never been to Central America, so I have no idea.

By the way, I'm writing this paragraph right now while on the bus from Ottawa to Montreal.  See, I had to come to Ottawa for a training session with HRI which actually turned out to be mostly reading the "contract" (technically it's not one, apparently -- it's some kind of tax thing).  I'm going to Montreal because there's another training session with another agency (it's  complicated), and this one lasts until the 16th.  But, I can't actually go out and see Montreal because the training takes place in Orford, which I'm told is basically the middle of nowhere, so boo them.  At least room and board are all covered by the host agency.  I kind of wonder if I've actually joined a cult because everything is so organized and inward-oriented.  Almost my entire waking hours are scheduled for some kind of training that I don't really need.  How to overcome culture shock?  Coping with another language?  Really, now.

After that I head to Toronto and spend the 17th buying essential supplies I'll need for my upcoming journey.  I do have a question for people, though.  I'm thinking of bringing along some small gifts to give to my new Costa Rican  coworkers.  I think it would be better if I gave them something quintessentially Canadian, but what can something like that be if it also will fit in my luggage and not bankrupt me?  Anyone got ideas?  I asked at the Ottawa session and someone suggested Canadian flag pins.

But anyway, that's what I was up to on my summer vacation (I didn't read any of my summer books either).

UPDATE:

Internet access has been tricky out here in the boonies, I'm only posting this now on the last day of training.  I was going to try meeting up with you Toronto-based folks since I'll be there all day tomorrow but this is rather last-minute notice, isn't it?  Mea culpa.

May 27, 2007

My life is an article from The Onion

Heroic Computer Dies To Save World From Masters Thesis

The Onion

Heroic Computer Dies To Save World From Master's Thesis

WALTHAM, MA—A courageous young notebook computer committed a fatal, self-inflicted execution error late Sunday night, selflessly giving its own life so that professors, academic advisors, classmates, and even future generations of college students would never have to read Jill Samoskevich's 227-page master's thesis, sources close to the Brandeis University English graduate student reported Monday.

For it so falls out that what we have we prize not the worth whiles we enjoy it, but being lack'd and lost, why, then we rack the value, then we find the virtue that possession would not show us while it was ours.  (Tatewaki Kuno, age 17)

So, my laptop committed suicide almost as soon as I got back from Toronto.  Flush with the glow of success, clothed in the pride that accompanies great accomplishments, I sat myself down to continue my work, but alack and alas, fate had other ideas.  The hard drive of my laptop somehow refused to work, and all my efforts to repair it were for naught.  At the last, I tried transferring my most important files to my flash drive, but my computer froze up for the final time and I saved nothing.  And my last backup?  Why, that was in December.  I believe the problem is physical and not with the software, and all my research shows that data recovery will probably cost at least $300 and probably into the thousands of dollars, so I've resigned myself to starting over again.

It's rather fascinating how one can be on top of the world one day and feeling like something a dung beetle crapped out the next.  And the week after that, I had a phone interview for something that I really wanted which seemed to have gone well, so I was up again.  It's true what King Lear said: "Like flies to wanton boys are we to the gods; they kill us for their sport."

My biggest consolation is that I am an inveterate procrastinator, so I didn't actually lose five months' worth of work.  I would hate to calculate it, but I suspect I did far less work than I should have for the last five months.  I've also got a very detailed 11-page outline, plus all my notes are in actual physical notebooks, so it shouldn't be too difficult to get everything back together.  I wonder if I can still finish for sometime in June?  And I still have the conference paper I presented, too.

Anyway, I'll be spending the rest of this day and pretty much all the ones after rewriting everything I had.  So, how's everyone else's summer going?

(By the way, the clip linked to above is from Ranma 1/2, the show I still keep meaning to write an analysis of.  The pigtailed girl is actually a boy cursed to turn female at the touch of cold water.  As a boy, he'd beaten samurai boy in a fight and earned the guy's enmity, and having done the same thing as a girl, he assumed the same thing was going to happen and that they were going to fight another duel.  Instead he got hit on.  The series plays all kinds of clever little games with gender like that and I'll never feel intellectually sated until I've written an appropriate paean to the glory that is Ranma 1/2.)

May 08, 2007

In case anyone was interested

Here is the abstract of the paper I will present at the CASCA/AES conference at the University of Toronto in twenty-three hours and seventeen minutes:

The World Wide Diasporic Web: Blogging and its Role in the Experience of Transnationalism Among Filipinos Online

Transnationalism is the condition of being socially present in more than one country, while transnational migrants are those people whose everyday lives simultaneously unfold across borders.  But what is the role of the Internet--that so-called borderless space--in the experience of transnationalism among diasporic people?  Specifically, how is transnationalism experienced by Filipinos in global diaspora in the context of the new medium of weblogs, also known as blogs?  And is there such a thing as a transnational imagined community of Filipino bloggers?

I'm in the first day (yay!) of the second session (boo!) in the last slot (double boo!) before lunch (where's my gun?).  It's possible I'll collapse from protein deprivation before my turn comes up.  But seriously, I need protein so bad I occasionally get headaches if I don't get some on schedule.  Maybe I should smuggle in a burger to eat in between sessions?  Or perhaps I can bring a tub of popcorn to eat while I listen to the other presenters.

And guess what, the Comaroffs are giving the plenary talk.  Utter coolness.  Maybe I should ask them to sign my chest?  I hope my friend brings his digital recorder, I'm so totally getting a copy from him.  I wonder if I can post the recording for download or if there's too much legal whatsit to consider.  I'll have to ask.

May 06, 2007

Where's Waldo?

After more than a month of silence, I return to this blog which once I updated so religiously.   Why have I been gone for so long?  Well, I have several reasons.

The first is that I was working on my thesis.  I swear, it's like a turd that refuses to come out.  I strain and strain, but it resists my valiant efforts.  I think I used to write effortlessly, but I wonder if I manufactured those memories out of the haze of nostalgia.

The second reason is that I was working on a paper that I'm going to present at the annual conference of the Canadian Anthropology Society/Société Canadienne d'Anthropologie (CASCA) in--damn, it's only three days away.  Where did the time go?  Not to worry, the paper's finished.  It uses data from my thesis research but it's not just a distillation of that project, its focus is slightly different.  I've titled it "The World Wide Diasporic Web: Blogging and its Role in the Experience of Transnationalism Among Filipinos Online".  It's about my search for Benedict Anderson's imagined community among Filipino bloggers, which would mean that community would have to be transnational.  It's also about governmentality and the presence of the state online, though I never actually use the g-word.  Anyway, I'll put up the paper after CASCA.  If I decide to bring my laptop, I may do some live conference blogging, though it's possible I'll be too busy anyway.  Man, last year's conference was fun.

The third reason is that I'm applying to do an overseas development internship in the Philippines under the auspices of the Canadian International Development Agency.  I don't plan to do anything but paid internships since I certainly can't afford six or more months of no steady cash flow.  Anyway, I've been researching different organizations and reading some stuff about development (so far it's just one book by Colin Leys, one of the big theorists on the subject--signed by him, I might add).  Applied and development anthropology have always been one of my interests and I've got a few ideas about how they might be accomplished in this context, but I still need direct experience in development efforts.  Not to worry, I'm also planning to read plenty of critique of development stuff and have skimmed James Ferguson's The Anti-Development Machine before.  I admit, I also want to visit the Philippines again and have someone else pay for the plane ticket, but I honestly am interested in this other stuff.

And the final reason I haven't been updating this blog is because my brother just bought Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas.  It's a video game set in the early 1990s in a fictional city clearly meant to be Los Angeles.  Actually, it's about the general West Coast experience and has analogues for San Francisco, San Diego, and Las Vegas, as well as ample representation of the hick towns just outside LA.  It's really quite good, though I preferred the previous game set in Miami in the 1980s.  The music was certainly catchier, this one is mostly rap and hip hop.  It's odd that there's no grunge but I guess that's too far north in Seattle.  I could quite easily analyze this game for the racial politics behind it--the main character is a black gangbanger from Compton ("Ganton") who the player directs to commit multiple violent crimes and often to kill white police officers in LAPD uniforms; it takes place in the same period as the Rodney King beatings, the OJ Simpson trial, and the LA riots; and let's not forget that most of the game's players are white and middle class.  I could analyze all this but I almost always play the game to decompress and have managed to will away my higher faculties during playtime.  The more intensely I work, the more intensely I procrastinate, and there's something somehow cathartic about killing cops over and over.  It sometimes feels like I'm just doing my thesis on the PS2, especially since there is an endless supply of cops and they just keep coming over and over until I eventually get killed by a SWAT team or someting.  I've yet to accomplish it, but if you make yourself enough of a menace the cops will call in the army to bring in their tanks, and since you can hijack almost any vehicle in the game (it's called Grand Theft Auto, after all), then it's sweet freaking rampage time pour moi.  I can't wait until I get a tank.  Perhaps Zizek and Plato were right, there are only two kinds of people in the world, those who kill and torture and those who dream of doing so.

So that's what I've been up to.  I've got several drafts of posts already lined up, so I'll have a bunch of posts up soonish (I might wait until after CASCA to put them up).  Actually, one of them is titled "Why anthropologists are a bunch of wankers", which I wrote when I was in the middle of my thesis-loathing period.  It's actually got some serious analysis in there and I may still put it up sometime.  But, until next time, dear reader.

March 02, 2007

All India all the time

Why do I have three different copies of Homi Bhabha's essay "Culture's In Between", all photocopied from different books?  Apparently I forgot that I'd gotten the essay immediately after procuring it each time.  I realized what I'd done when I read Akhil Gupta's critique of Benedict Anderson's Imagined Communities, "Imagined Nations", in A Companion to the Anthropology of Politics (2004).  Gupta mentions Bhabha's essay, so  I thought I'd take a peek and subsequently discovered just how shaky my memory is.  Oh well.

Anyway, Gupta's essay also mentions Salman Rushdie's Midnight's Children, a book I'd read when I was in high school.  I didn't understand it at all.  I didn't catch any of the stuff it was saying about nationalism, colonialism, and historical memory and instead mostly read it on the surface, as a story about a bunch of kids in India with supernatural powers.  Dumb, huh?

(Why exactly was I reading Salman Rushdie?  Well, at the time my family was living in an apartment building that had lots of university students.  When someone moved out, it was kind of a tradition that they leave behind unwanted books in the laundry room, and hey presto, I had a new book to read.)

Well, Midnight's Children is in the next room, so I can re-read it when I have a spare moment (namely, after I get my degree).  It should be obvious from my blogging that I've mostly been consuming light fiction lately (e.g., comic books and the occasional episode of Battlestar Galactica), so Rushdie will have to wait.  And as for improving my memory, I have EndNote now to keep me organized.  Whee-ha, my life just keeps getting more exciting.

February 14, 2007

Jamais vu

As in, the opposite of deja vu, it's the feeling that something has never happened before.  I was just reading Stuart Hall's introduction to Questions of Cultural Identity when I got the feeling.  The introductory chapter is actually rather central to my thesis because it's here that Hall outlines his thinking on identification versus identity and I use his definition quite a lot.  It's been a few months since I've actually had to read the essay.  I've just now read it again and I got the distinct feeling that I'd never read it before.  There were entire parts that I didn't remember at all.  In fact, I may actually understand it better now.  I must say, the critical distance afforded by time is helpful in getting the most out of a meaty essay, especially when the first time around I had to read that meaty essay on the quick because my proposal was due the next week.  This is just like when I re-read Elizabeth Povinelli's "Radical Worlds: The Anthropology of Incommensurability and Inconceivability" and could actually appreciate what it was saying.

Anyway, that is all.  Please return to your regular lives.

January 22, 2007

It could be worse

Went skiing on Saturday.  It was the first time I'd gone skiing in two years.  I sucked so bad it was hardly funny.  I lost one of my skis on my first run, which involved me going downhill on my back with my other ski dragging behind me.  That was the only time I lost my skis, so yay for me,  but I didn't meet my goal of making it through a run without falling.  Still, muscle memory is some good juju.  In the beginning I had to run through a checklist before every run to remind myself of all the stuff you're supposed to do: lean into turns, snowplow, look where you want to go, etc.  By the end of the day I was starting to do all of this unconsciously.

I looked in the newspaper the next day and apparently there had been an extreme cold warning for Saturday, but it wasn't really as bad as all that.  My hands went numb several times, but I just took that as a sign to go back inside and warm up.  After all, it's not a winter sport if you can still feel your fingers.

The "chalet" at the ski hill was rather piss poor, since it's my opinion that there must be a fireplace for a spot to be called a chalet.  Despite the cold, the runs got really crowded in the afternoon, especially with kids.  Damn those reckless buggers, I almost got hit several times and I saw two snowboarders collide.  On the one hand, I can appreciate that kids and teenagers are supposed to be learning their physical limits, but on the other hand I object to anything that inconveniences me in any way whatsoever.

It's nice that you can leave your boots in the lodge and be completely confident that they'll still be there later despite any number of people passing through.  Still, anyone who goes skiing or snowboarding must already have some money, otherwise they wouldn't be participating in such a bourgeois pastime.  Ski rental and full day pass was only $35.00 for me, so it's not like skiing is necessarily amazingly expensive (season pass is like $150-200), but admittedly anyone who gets serious about the sport will be spending loads of money on special equipment -- not just skis, boots, and poles, but also a proper coat and ski pants, and probably ski mask, gloves, and wick-away underwear and shirt -- I wore the wick-away stuff for the first time this Saturday and was impressed at how much less sticky I felt.  Anyone living somewhere cold will have their own coat, gloves, hat (called a tuque here in Canada), and thermal underwear already, but probably a serious skier will want to get the special stuff, since they really do make a difference.

And to top it off, the ski hill was only five to ten minutes away from my house.  My brother said that last season he and his friends went boarding between their classes at the university.  Beyond the parking lot are people's houses, and it's kind of cool to look out from the top of the hill and see the winter landscape of suburbia stretching out.  So chalk up one more reason not to hate northern Ontario.

January 19, 2007

Question on "The Problem of Speech Genres"

What exactly does Bakhtin mean when he refers to "style," and how is style different from genre in his thinking?  I'm not entirely clear on it and it's bugging me more and more.  I'm going to have to do some more digging on the topic and maybe read the other essays in Speech Genres and Other Late Essays.  Still, Bakhtin's got such an interesting-sounding name: Mikhail Mikhailovich BAAHK-TEEEHN.  Or M.M. Bakhtin for short, also great-sounding.

And speaking of linguistics, I've discovered an unexpected benefit from having to ride the bus all the time -- namely, that I get to eavesdrop on the conversations of the other riders, and consequently I get to listen to a lot more French-English codeswitching than I usually do.  I just heard some intrasentential codeswitching, so I I guess I have to reject my original contention that such codeswitching doesn't happen around here.  I wish I could read on a moving vehicle without feeling like I need to vomit, otherwise I'd do more on the bus than daydreaming and surreptitiously scoping out the other people there.